deviant ART

[x]
Subscribe Now | Buy deviantWEAR | Advertise Here

=digitalmonalisa:icondigitalmonalisa:

Lacy  

Shoutboard

no shoutboard shouts yet

Shoutbox

=IamIron:iconIamIron:
Beautiful + Awesome = You
Thu Jun 26, 2008, 7:03 PM

Forum

No threads yet. Add one!

what is your all time favorite game?

42%
13 deviants said super mario bros. --- the original
23%
7 deviants said cowboys and indians --- clean or dirty version
19%
6 deviants said global thermo neuclear war
10%
3 deviants said poker
6%
2 deviants said pong
0%
No deviants said duck duck goose
0%
No deviants said tic tac toe
0%
No deviants said go fish
0%
No deviants said chess
0%
No deviants said checkers
23 comments | Past Polls

Recent Journal Entries

  • 6/26/08 Image Profile Game
  • 5/13/08 there is only one. . . .
  • 5/10/08 twin sisters and many more . . . . !!!!!!!!
  • 4/7/08 < TAGGED >
  • 4/4/08 Most Viewed Deviation!!!!!!!
  • 4/1/08 too cute
  • 3/23/08 HAPPY BIRTHDAY.. .. .
  • 3/20/08 17,000 freakin pageviews!!!!!
  • 3/3/08 15,001 Page Views!!!!!!!!
  • 2/21/08 free advertisement

    • Disclaimer

    The views expressed on this website are mine alone and do not necessarily reflect those of deviantART or my employers.

    there is only one. . . .

    Journal Entry: Tue May 13, 2008, 10:47 PM
    I read a signature tonight. It said "There's only one now. Be it."

    It made me think of what a friend told me.
    He said he would always be happy. "The simple minded are blessed that way."

    "We gain happiness by gaining simplicity inside."

    "Figure out who you are ahead of time. Thought is resistance. We think because we don't know, because we don't know who we are."

    "Its as easy as realizing it is. Sounds empty, but the meaning is there. You already -are- fixed, because you -can't- break."

    "Feel it, Don't think it. Thoughts lie, feelings don't"


    -----------

    Some friend, right. He feeds me this line of shit I can't begin to understand at the time, but now, a few days later, I can't help but wonder. . .

    "Who the fuck am I!"

    The age old question. DUH!, I am ME for crying out loud. I don't need anyone to tell me that, or do I. And there I go again, questioning my self. And for what? Why in the hell do I put my self through all this shit? I get nothing out of doubting my own ability and character. I am a freakin' person, just like you.

    No better, no worse.

    But still, there you are, in the corner of my head, pushing me to be more than I am today. To be that ONE you told me I could be all that time ago. But how did you know, what makes you so damn special? Every day I find my self getting closer to who I think I want to be, but I have no idea what to do when I become that person. Its not becoming that person I'm afraid of, its how do I live my life as her if shes not me?

    I am scared to spread my wings and fly. Where might the wind take me? To a place I don't belong, or to the place I have been longing for all my life. That uncertainty kills me every time.

    I just don't want to lose my self on the quest to find my self.



    • Mood: Yearning
    • Listening to: hmmmmmm
    • Watching: the thoughts in my head scroll by

    Devious Comments

    love 0 0 joy 0 0 wow 0 0 mad 0 0 sad 0 0 fear 0 0 neutral 0 0

    *TreLore:iconTreLore: May 13, 2008, 10:49:26 PM
    you wont, because youve already found you, all you have to do is except who you are. From what I see your person whose beauty goes beyond skin deep and is as deep as your soul

    --
    Also if you like good stories, poems and love Cats. Then come to the club, my friends and I created>[link]
    =digitalmonalisa:icondigitalmonalisa: May 13, 2008, 10:58:09 PM
    that may be, but there are plenty of times when that is really hard to see. I do my best to stay true to me, but i just can't help wondering if I am even the same person I was just a few years ago, or if I have changed, was it for the better?

    just a bit of letting my thoughts run away with me tonight

    thank you :)

    --
    I am me, whether you like it or not. . .
    I can be nothing but me, thats all I know how to be.

    Just me.
    In my own skin --- and for once --- comfortable in it.
    *rustyshutter:iconrustyshutter: May 14, 2008, 2:24:29 AM
    Fly ! It will only make you better in the end !

    --
    Have a Corona on me !
    =digitalmonalisa:icondigitalmonalisa: May 14, 2008, 5:18:26 AM
    I hope so.
    I know that the only way to find out is to just jump off that cliff, but I looked down, its up there.
    I hate to admit that I'm scared of anything, but taking down that wall and not only letting me find my self, but also letting everyone else see that, yes, I'm a bit scared.

    Thank you for the encouragement.
    I keep telling my self that and eventually I'll start to believe it, then, it must be true. :)

    --
    I am me, whether you like it or not. . .
    I can be nothing but me, thats all I know how to be.

    Just me.
    In my own skin --- and for once --- comfortable in it.
    =alexajaye:iconalexajaye: May 14, 2008, 5:22:09 AM
    You must one with the universe, young grasshopper. And quit listening to people who make you question who you are and what you want to be. It never turns out good. Trust me. And I could only guess who tried to give those stones of wisdom.

    --
    Perhaps I'm old and tired, but I think that the chances of finding out what's actually going on are so absurdly remote that the only thing to do is to say, "Hang the sense of it," and keep yourself busy. I'd much rather be happy than right any day.
    =digitalmonalisa:icondigitalmonalisa: May 14, 2008, 5:31:42 AM
    Its not that any one has tried to make me be who I don't want to be. Thats just it!

    He' sonly told me that I can be exactly who I want to be. That all I have to do is just trust in my self and go with it.

    For some reason, I am just having a bit of trouble with that today.
    Hopefully it'll pass soon. . . .

    --
    I am me, whether you like it or not. . .
    I can be nothing but me, thats all I know how to be.

    Just me.
    In my own skin --- and for once --- comfortable in it.
    *TreLore:iconTreLore: May 14, 2008, 8:05:43 AM
    Well hun if you not committing evil thoughts and trying to kill people. i would not worry to much. The thing is change happens and with it come a different person. My views and beliefs have changed for the better. As will yoiurs I am sure. Your still the same person but growing does make you different. Dont fear the changes. Because fear of changes turns us into something else all together. I think in my own opinion you did change for the better. I like ya, i think your wondeful and so full of heart As long as you dont let your evil side out to rule everything in your life then dont worry about it. If you need to talk more and you dont want this so public just note me and I will reply

    --
    Also if you like good stories, poems and love Cats. Then come to the club, my friends and I created>[link]
    *olearysfunphotos:iconolearysfunphotos: May 14, 2008, 1:14:59 PM
    I am what I am and that's all I am. Treat all people with respect and kindness and you will be respected.
    =digitalmonalisa:icondigitalmonalisa: May 14, 2008, 1:17:45 PM
    i try my best to just be me
    if i even know who that is

    some days i wonder
    im sure it will all make sense to me next week or so

    thank you :)

    --
    I am me, whether you like it or not. . .
    I can be nothing but me, thats all I know how to be.

    Just me.
    In my own skin --- and for once --- comfortable in it.
    Previous Page    12    Next Page
    Sign up to comment on this journal! <3